With a Heavy Heart


As I write this, I find it unbelievably difficult to find the right words to express.

My heart has been heavy the last couple of days from the the grief and shock that come from the events that unfolded at my college this last Friday. As many of you have seen on the news, UCSB was subjected to a premeditated massacre by a misogynistic student from the neighboring community college. My entire school is in mourning for our lost classmates and are in disbelief that something like this could happen to our small tight-knit community. It’s impossible to fathom how something so devastating and tragic could happen to the place I call home. It is completely surreal to know the location of every crime scene on the television and to think that I had just been there a few days ago for lunch or had walked up that street the previous day. To know that my SISTER was living in the same apartment complex at the same time as the shooter last year. Now that apartment complex is a crime scene and three bodies have been pulled out of it.

My home feels violated.

I love my school and Isla Vista. My prayers go out to the victims and their family and friends. Please keep them in your thoughts.


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  1. says

    Oh sweetheart! I am so so sorry! My thoughts and prayers are with you, your family and friends, and all those who were either directly or indirectly effected by this horrible, horrible event! I can’t even imagine just how devastating this must be on such a personal level. My heart goes out to you dear <3
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  2. says

    Wow, that is crazy. I’m so sorry girl. You will get through this and come out even stronger, I know you will! My prayers go out to you and the entire community <3
  3. Autumn Wieland says

    I am SO sorry you have to go though this!! :'( But i am glad you are okay!!
  4. says

    Christine, I just heard about this story a second ago (I’ve been a bit disconnected this weekend) and immediately typed in your blog address to check on ya! I’m so sorry for what happened on your campus. My thoughts and prayers are with you and all of the students.
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  5. says

    Oh sweet pea. I live in the UK and have been watching this devastation on the news over here. I can only imagine how you feel. My heart, thoughts and prayers go out to you. Sending love and light <3
  6. says

    I was thinking of you when I heard about this tragedy. One thing I will say that hasn’t been brought up is that this horrific event will only make your community and friendships 100x stronger. I just graduated from Virginia Tech and while I was not attending the school when the shooting happened, I can say that it shaped our community to become close knit. We don’t hesitate to go out of our way to help another Hokie. I am sure this event will make everyone appreciate the beautiful place you live. Stay strong – my thoughts and prayers are with you.
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    Christine, I am as shocked and devastated as you are. I cannot even imagine how difficult it must be to be in SB right now, to walk the streets where the massacre took place, to be so close to people who must have known the victims, and to feel that your HOME has been violated. I am sending so, so much love to Santa Barbara right now and to everyone whose there who I love dearly (you included). SB will get through this and be even stronger afterward… but there are no words to express the sadness that is what happened. People can be absolutely evil. It’s indescribable.
  8. says

    I am still in shock about what has happened. I cannot imagine what it must have been like to be there. We should not have to fear for our safety in college. My thoughts and prayers go out to the victims & students at UCSB and their families.
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